Hurdles are in life and not just in track. It has been a season of jumping hurdles. As many of you know, since trying to return to work in 2021 after a hospitalization in October, it was apparent that I was physically unable to work. My doctors and work agreed I should go on medical leave and I never returned. I have been jobless and living with friends and family since April 2022 trying to get on disability and work on my health.
I have been denied twice by disability and my lawyer is getting ready for a court appeal. Despite the metaphorical hurdles I've been jumping with disability and near homelessness, I have been working on my health.
I finally got into a neurologist and I have yet to have a migraine since new meds and watching what I eat/avoiding stress and triggers. I have been seeing a therapist and psychiatrist to deal with the deep depression and anxiety all of this has exacerbated since my health declined. I have a new cardiologist that got me connected with a POTS rehabilitation program that I am able to modify due to my ME/CFS. I started day one and it was terrible, but I did it. I know in time it will get easier... I'm just out of practice.
My ME/CFS and fibro doctor had surgery so my appointment with her moved to the end of March from the beginning of February. I look forward to sharing what progress I've made and ask for any other modifications to life and POTS program to help me be more successful.
Though there have been many hurdles and setbacks, I'm so thankful for friends and family that have been supportive in the midst of my chaos. My Chronicles of Chronic Ills has not really taken off, but I'm proud of starting it instead of laying around doing nothing. I'm hopeful for a future, even though it will look different than I once planned. I'm thankful for the love of my creator and his presence in the midst of pain and hurdles.
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